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“high support need” not synonym (mean same/similar thing) as “hard”
yes, high support need often hard be.
but hard no mean high support need.
medium support need can be hard
low support need can be hard.
level 3 hard.
level 2 hard.
level 1 can also be hard. level 1 without enough support or level 1 in burnout can be extra hard.
be autistic in ableist society can be hard no matter how much or little support need or how much struggle compare to other autistic.
don’t need call self “high support need” to have past trauma valid or to have support or be valid.
please leave us high support need alone please stop use us to make self feel more valid.
garlic-coup asked:
i think you do a really impressive job balancing comprehensive/concise while referencing a lot of complex frameworks(contexts? schools of thought? lol idk what to call that. big brain ideas) but if you have any readings specifically on the institution of psychiatry topic that you would recommend/think are relevant, I'd be interested. it's absolutely not a conversation that's being had enough and I want to be able to articulate myself around it
yes i have readings >:)
first of all, the anti-psychiatry bibliography and resource guide is a great place to start getting oriented in this literature. it’s split by sub-topic, and there are paragraphs interspersed throughout that give summaries of major thinkers’ positions and short intros to key texts.
it’s from 1979, though, so here are some recs from the last 4 decades:
overview critiques
- mind fixers: psychiatry’s troubled search for the biology of mental illness, by anne harrington
- psychiatric hegemony: a marxist theory of mental illness, by bruce m z cohen
- desperate remedies: psychiatry’s turbulent quest to cure mental illness, by andrew scull
- psychiatry and its discontents, by andrew scull
- madness is civilization: when the diagnosis was social, 1948–1980, by michael e staub
- contesting psychiatry: social movements in mental health, by nick crossley
the dsm & pharmacy
- dsm: a history of psychiatry’s bible, by allan v horwitz
- the dsm-5 in perspective: philosophical reflections on the psychiatric babel, by steeves demazeux & patrick singy
- pharmageddon, by david healy
- pillaged: psychiatric medications and suicide risk, by ronald w maris
- the making of dsm-iii: a diagnostic manual’s conquest of american psychiatry, by hannah s decker
- the myth of the chemical cure: a critique of psychiatric drug treatment, by joanna moncrieff
- the book of woe: the dsm and the unmaking of psychiatry, by gary greenberg
- prozac on the couch: prescribing gender in the era of wonder drugs, by jonathan metzl
- the creation of psychopharmacology, by david healy
- the bitterest pills: the troubling story of antipsychotic drugs, by joanna moncrieff
psychiatry & race
- the protest psychosis: how schizophrenia became a black disease, by jonathan metzl
- administrations of lunacy: racism and the haunting of american psychiatry at the milledgeville asylum, by mab segrest
- the peculiar institution and the making of modern psychiatry, 1840–1880, by wendy gonaver
- what’s wrong with the poor? psychiatry, race, and the war on poverty, by mical raz
national and cross-national contexts
- mad by the millions: mental disorders and the early years of the world health organization, by harry yi-jui wu
- psychiatry and empire, by sloan mahone & megan vaughan
- ʿaṣfūriyyeh: a history of madness, modernity, and war in the middle east, by joelle m abi-rached
- surfacing up: psychiatry and social order in colonial zimbabwe, 1908–1968, by lynette jackson
- the british anti-psychiatrists: from institutional psychiatry to the counter-culture, 1960–1971, by oisín wall
- crime, madness, and politics in modern france: the medical concept of national decline, by robert a nye
- reasoning against madness: psychiatry and the state in rio de janeiro, 1830–1944, by manuella meyer
- colonial madness: psychiatry in french north africa, by richard keller
- madhouse: psychiatry and politics in cuban history, by jennifer lynn lambe
- depression in japan: psychiatric cures for a society in distress, by junko kitanaka
- inheriting madness: professionalization and psychiatric knowledge in 19th century france, by ian r dowbiggin
- mad in america: bad science, bad medicine, and the enduring mistreatment of the mentally ill, by robert whitaker
see more and more “entire life told/thought i high function but actually am just very high support need” (autism context) and get more and more annoy at that
everytime see everytime click into page and everytime realize by “very high support” (yes see multiple include the “very”) they mean comorbid anxiety depression cptsd trouble make friends because people think “weird” bullied lose speech need remind shower need remind things (but able do and if no remind after a while will do) trouble school trouble job etc am forget.
and all that hard struggle yes no deny. deserve all the help and am not say it easy.
but it not “very high support need.” not even “high support need.” have higher need than what nondisabled neurotypical society expect you to is not “high support need.” yes, know many people do this because want validate self and past and trauma. but. not need be high support to be valid or to receive support. not need be high support for past trauma & past neglect & past not get support to be valid.
and. it water down definition of “high support need.” kick actual high support need out. us who extra vulnerable because need physical help most or all bADLs. need constant 24/7 supervision to be alive to not accidental harm self or die. need medical services for stuff people (include these people) take for granted, like just be able communicate, walk (yes many high support need autistic people struggle with that even without specific physical disability dx), feeding, etc. no awareness of self or other people or surroundings or danger. need 24/7 behavioral support. experience explosive emotions that even terrify self self no understand and cannot control behavior so destructive. many very high support, if not get support they literally die. not exaggerate. that how high of support they need.
(and even debate about whether should write this list. because. unless you high support yourself or experience these same amount yourself or close to someone who is or give care for them, very high chance you not get degree of symptom am talk about. plenty autistic struggle emotional regulation, for example. some struggle with severe intense lose control explosive behavior, include some level 1s. but unless you experience it self or read lot lot lot lot about & by people who do, found that average person include average autism community person not know what am mean by explosive emotion.)
it not “gatekeeping” or “call fake.” it me get frustrate at people misuse medical term that used describe extremely vulnerable population, who rely on other people to keep basic alive, many us have trouble or have limited language communication or have none at all, we need keep medical term describe us because many us cannot explain cannot list you our support need, either because long or private or make us feel awful or literal no communication/intellectual ability.
by validate self you harming us. “well it just one person identify themself not affect you [eye roll].” no, not just one person. but even if just one person, people around them see, and think, oh, that high support need, that very high support need, am educated. and that spread. and actual high support need people like am describe are ignored people don’t think they exist.
please. talk about own experience. no matter “there people more struggle than me.” am not say cannot. am not say “look at these actual struggles yours mild shut up.” it autism spectrum, there spectrum of experience. there more than “no support need” vs “high support need.” there things in middle. even low support need—that just mean low compare to other autistics. not “your support need your trauma not important.”
but please. remember us. leave our terms alone.
this post gets to go on main because i find it important actually
while i'm in the midst of a very slippery and questionable grip on reality reminder that mocking people for any kind of strange or unconventional belief under any circumstances is both actively ableist and also generally an asshole move.
also, only mocking people you think are non-psychotic or bad people does not make it any less ableist by the way. something something i shouldn't need to give you my fucking "I AM PSYCHOTIC" card to not risk being made fun of, thanks
[this is okay to rb, non-psychotic people don't say shit in the notes]
happy disability month reminder that ableism against psychotic ppl is bad even if youre directing it at people you think are non-psychotic
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Love that they put “a sense of impending doom” as one of the symptoms of a heart attack, like girl, that’s just how it is to be alive these days, you’re gonna have to be more specific
This made me chuckle but after scrolling away I felt the need to come back to it.
Because as someone who has felt this I can not stress how different it actually is from anxiety. Which is saying a lot because I have a massive anxiety disorder.
I've only felt this twice in my life - once when I was going into kidney failure due to an infection and again when my body was going into shock due to dehydration and malnourishment due to GI issues - and I can not stress how much it saved my life. It's hard to even put it into words. It's not like a panic attack, or anxiety. It is a horrific gut turning feeling of absolute dread.
Especially if you have anxiety you'll know the difference honestly. It's so much worse. It's every cell in your body and your brain screaming that there's something horribly wrong in a way you've never felt. It's your brain screaming out that you are going to die in a way no panic attack has ever done before.
I can not stress how important it is to get yourself to the ER if you feel this way. Especially if your having other physical symptoms.
This is amazing and incredibly helpful, oh my god. Thank you.
Seconding the above : I was going into shock from internal bleeding, and that sense of “something is gravely wrong” was entirely different from my day-to-day whirlwind of anxiety.
For me, it was very quiet. For me, there was a deep sense that I could just lie down on the floor and not have to ever get up again, no effort required.
That combined wrongness/relief was so weird and so unsettling that I drove myself to the ER.
The “impending” part is really key to that symptom, I think, based on my experience. It’s not the existential dread of late-stage capitalism grinding the world into nurdles. It’s a ghost crow on your shoulder whispering “it’s here, it’s now.”
Impending doom is also a feature of anaphylaxis, something I’m intimately familiar with as someone with mast cell dysfunction.
For me, its the overwhelming, near calm certainty of doom that distinguishes it from the jittery panic of “but something could go wrong.”
There’s no “what if?” There’s no room to question it. It just IS. And it’s very different from the “calm” of disassociation too. I’m not disassociated from myself when it happens. I’m probably actually the most present ever.
I’ve turned to doctors and told them calmly and with utter certainty “I am going to die” and the reaction that calm certainty gets is immediate intervention because doctors also recognize that stillness as the body not bothering to waste any time on fight or flight and just going straight to “death is imminent due to some internal failing, act accordingly.”
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